A personal diary keeping people abreast of what I am working on writing-wise.

Monday, February 06, 2006

LOVE IS LIKE A HIGH PRISON WALL, AND YOU CAN LEAVE ME STANDING SO TALL

All of this talk of art coming in, and then this lengthy interview with James Lucas Jones about Oni Press in 2006 runs on Newsarama, but without any art from my books--it made me decide I had to share.

Ladies and gentlemen...

Joëlle Jones (a.k.a. Pippi), 12 Reasons Why I Love Her



OCTOBER 2006

Marc Ellerby (a.k.a. Mumps), Love the Way You Love

AUGUST 2006

Current Soundtrack: Alfie, Crying at Teatime

Current Mood: flirty

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[to leave comments, click on the time-stamp below, then scroll down on the new page] – All text (c) 2006 Jamie S. Rich

Sunday, February 05, 2006

THE LOVE YOU FOUND MUST NEVER STOP

The beauty just keeps coming.

This morning I awoke to sketches from Chynna for the cover of something I am waiting to announce (though, I'll admit that people know about it just to be confusing), and they have exceeded my wildest expectations. I can't believe I am going to have a book that looks like what this one is going to look like. Chynna is so damn awesome.

Someday I'm going to end up on some assembly-line mainstream comic because my greed will overcome me, and I'll get stuck with some truly shitty artist as punishment for all the good artist karma I've collected. I'm taking more than my fair share!

MEMUS INTERRUPTUS:

I regularly avoid memes for this blog, but I feel like Kelly Sue is testing me to make sure my love is real and not just some pretend thing that I tout around to beef up my reputation as a champion for comely ladies of society. So, here goes:

4 jobs i’ve had:

1. Construction laborer
2. Pharmacy clerk
3. Conducted phone surveys about movies
4. Indie record store clerk

4 movies i can watch over and over:

1. Breakfast at Tiffany's
2. The Maltese Falcon
3. Party Girl
4. Lady from Shanghai

4 places i’ve lived (I'll pick four cities from each of the four states):

1. Kalamazoo, Michigan
2. Peck, Iowa
3. Quartz Hill, California
4. Portland, OR

4 TV shows i love:

1. ER
2. Law & Order: SVU
3. Survivor (yes, still - given 1 &3, don't bug me on Thursday nights!)
4. Arrested Development

4 places i’ve vacationed:

1. beijing
2. bristol/london
3. new york city
4. Sylvia Beach Hotel

4 of my favorite dishes:

1. peanut butter on a bagel
2. spicy pad thai
3. white chocolate Reese's
4. Almond croissant

4 sites i visit almost daily:

1. snoopy.com
2. NME.com
3. dvdpricesearch.com
4. The Comics Reporter

4 places i would rather be now:

1. watching a movie
2. staring at the ocean
3. at a Tears concert
4. in the dirt

4 bloggers i wish to tag:

1. Sarah Disgrace
2. Chris Tamarri
3. Ian Shaughnesexxy
4. Debbie Huey

Ellerby gets off coz he has the mumps. Yeah, I know! In the 21st century! Apparently in England their immunization is on par with their dentistry. Ponce!

Current Soundtrack: my top singles of 2005 mix

Current Mood: amused

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Saturday, February 04, 2006

WELL, I'M A LUCKY MAN, WITH FIRE IN MY HANDS

Pardon me if I strut a little bit, but I'm feeling like a lucky, lucky boy. I am not sure I can describe to you what it's like to see the scripts I write being drawn. Particularly with both 12 Reasons Why I Love Her and Love the Way You Love, because they were written quite some time ago and have been ladies in waiting...and waiting...and waiting.

But then Joëlle Jones came over today and we went to Kinko's to copy everything she has done on 12 Reasons so far so we can show it to Oni, and I really just wanted to take all the pages and spread them out on the floor and roll around on them, they were so beautiful. I told her I would, too, but she didn't believe me. I guess only myself and the photocopies know the truth.

Similarly, Marc Ellerby has been giving us regular doses of Love the Way You Love. He's having so much fun with it, and giving the material the dazzle it requires.

It's such a pleasure to see someone interpret what you wrote, understand it, and give it the breath of life you hoped it would have.

Like I said, I'm a lucky, lucky boy.

Current Soundtrack: The Decemberists, Picaresque

Current Mood: jubilant

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Friday, February 03, 2006

NOBODY KNOWS WHAT HUMAN LIFE IS

Oh, you lucky people, Morrissey Watch is back!

News began to emerge about the forthcoming album late last year. Ringleader of the Tormentors was being recorded in Italy with producer Tony Visconti, a heroic production man from the classic glam era. This news naturally sent Mozzlodites into a tailspin as thoughts of the great Your Arsenal sessions with glam compatriot Mick Ronson filled our experlty coiffed heads. 2004's You Are The Quarry was better than anyone had hoped, but could he still be on the upswing?

More news emerged. While some songs were still being written with Alain Whyte, Jesse Tobias, who replaced Whyte on the Quarry tour, was doing the bulk of the weightlifting (pleasing to me, since I have been saying the writing needs to be shaken up a bit). Ennio Morricone was coming in to conduct orchestra on a track, possibly with a children's choir. Special listening parties were earning raves, and these were followed by the a glimpse at the exceptional cover art:



And yesterday, the first track leaked. "I Will See You in Far Off Places" is the lead song on the record, and it just inexplicably appeared on the internet. Is this the marketing campaign? Next track 2, and then onward in order?

Regardless of how it got there, oh, my! Unless this is the fluke that a load of duds will follow after, Ringleader is going to be a corker. The tone of the song is operatic, with Morrissey stretching his voice as far out as it will go, singing in big open notes. The guitars swirl around in big swashes of noise, all twisted up with violins and Middle Eastern-sounding squeals. Lyrically, it's classic Moz, casting a cynical gaze over humanity and snatching some kind of interpersonal hope out of it. "The heart knows why I grieve/ And yes, one day I will close my eyes forever/ But I will see you, I will see you in far-off places." There is also a hint of the political, with references to America's murderous agenda used as an example of just how bad off our species has gotten.

The song builds to a maelstrom, almost literally, with sweeps of wind washing over as Morrissey stirs up the nostalgia with the sort of scatting la-da-da-da-dums we haven't heard since the first Smiths album. One can only guess what will come next.

Bring on April 4!

Current Soundtrack: Colin Meloy, "Tristan & Iseult (live @ the Birchmere);" Morrissey, the track in question; The Auteurs, No Dialogue with Cunts: The Auteurs Live at the London School of Economics '99

Current Mood: scrumptious

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A NICE DAY FOR A SULK

Looks like the full contents listing for Put the Book Back on the Shelf: A Belle & Sebastian Anthology has been released. It's an eclectic gathering of people, including a few names who will be new to me.

The State I'm In by Rick Spears & Rob G.
Expectations by Chris Butcher, Kalman Andrasofszky & Ramon Perez
I Could be Dreaming by Andi Watson
We Rule the School by Mark Smith & Paul Maybury
Me and the Major by Tom Hart
Fox in the Snow by Jacob Magraw
Get Me Away from Here, I'm Dying by Catia Chen
Dog on Wheels by Kako
Lazy Line Painter Jane by Janet Harvey & Laurenn McCubbin
You Made Me Forget My Dreams by Matthew S. Armstrong
Beautiful by Charles Brownstein & Dave Crosland
Ease Your Feet into the Sea by Bruno D'Angelo
The Model by Jennifer de Guzman & Brian Belew
The Chalet Lines by Erin Laing & Matt Forsythe
Nice Day for a Sulk by Rick Remender & John Heebink
There's Too Much Love by Leela Corman
Legal Man by Joey Weiser
Marx & Engels by Jamie S. Rich & Marc Ellerby
Step into My Office, Baby by Ian Carney & Jonathan Edwards
Dear Catastrophe Waitress by Mark Ricketts & Leanne Buckley
Piazza, New York Catcher by David Lasky
If She Wants Me by Ande Parks & Chris Samnee
Asleep on a Sunbeam by Nicholas Bannister
If You Find Yourself Caught in Love by Steven Griffin

I don't know the official release date for this. It is currently available for preorder, though. I believe it will be in stores in the next two months, hopefully in time for when the band come through Portland. I'm a nerd and would like to get the book signed.

Current Soundtrack: Otis Redding, The Very Best of...


Current Mood: grumpy

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PERMANENT RECORDS: TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS YOU'RE DELIRIOUS

Permanent Records is a year-long project. Each Friday (or thereabouts), I will post a new entry about one specific album, chosen due to its significance to myself as a fan. Though the list is numbered, a particular record's placement should not be considered a ranking. There will be 52 albums in all.

This endeavor is based on a concept started by Chris Tamarri at Crisis/Boring Change.

Today's entry goes out to my favorite pop buddy, Sarah Grace McCandless. She's justified, and I'm stripped.

48. CHRISTINA AGUILERA - STRIPPED (2002)
Executive Producers: Christina Aguilera & Ron Fair /Label: RCA



I don't believe in the concept of "guilty pleasures."

The denial of it is rather simple: like what you like, no need to qualify. If it entertains, if it inspires a positive reaction, then it's yours, accept it. Why feel guilty about it? In fact, the very idea suggests that somehow I should be looking to other people to validate my tastes, and I can't abide that. Think about it? Any time a "list your guilty pleasures" thread pops up somewhere on the internet, what is really going on? People aren't unabashedly celebrating something that brings them pleasure, they are looking for approval from the cool kids. The hope is that others will respond with, "Oh, no need to feel guilty about that. I love that!" and then you'll be able to huddle with the herd to stay warm in the taste storm.

Well, fuck that. Call it the existentialist in me, but I set my own life compass. I know the e-word is terribly outré, something I should have gotten over when adolescence ended, but I don't care. And I don't feel guilty about it, either. So, nyah! Though, I do understand the mentality of such deriders. It's like when someone tells me how much they love Charles Bukowski, and I can't help but look askance at them and wonder with an arched eyebrow, "How long have you been out of college now? You know the man only has, like, six books or something, and all the rest are exactly the same, right?" But the joy in being an existentialist is that I can dismiss your judgment of me while being able to freely indulge in being judgmental myself. Even from here, I can dismiss you judging me a hypocrite. I am Sam Spade, and you don't tell me what to do, dollface.

Nothing gets people's high horses up off their knees faster than an admission to loving pop music. And I'm not talking a neo-hipster, indie kid insistence that someone like Death Cab For Cutie writes excellent pop songs, I'm talking real life, top-of-the-charts, right-now POP! I'm talking Shampoo and the Spice Girls, and up to Britney Spears and Justin Timberlake and Girls Aloud. And no irony either! This entry is about Christina Aguilera's second album, and I am writing it with that previously arched eyebrow lowered, set in the position it grew in at. I love Stripped with all my heart, and I'm not going to apologize to you or anyone for it.

Don't think I don't know what you're doing right now, either. I can feel it. You're judging me even after I told you not to. Can you feel me not caring coming right back atcha all over again? Go ahead and be snooty, but you better be damn sure you can confidently invite me into your house and let me browse through your own music collection without finding some objects of derision. "Oh, look at all these Wilco albums! My, aren't you sensitive and precious?" "Hey, it's Beck! Way to think outside the box...without ever really having to!" And don't even get me started on what's wrong with you Led Zeppelin fans.

The thing is, we all have things that other people think is crap. Some of it might even be critically lauded, but that doesn't mean I can't think it's cheesy. It's all relative, so why look elsewhere when your ears are already telling you everything you need to know?

And before we go on, let's get a couple of more things out of the way:

(1) Yes, I am a dirty old man (too dirty to clean my act up, as they say), and yes, I want to have sex with Christina Aguilera. So what? I also want to have sex with Polly Jean Harvey, think J.C. used to be cuter than Justin (but now, no way), and have made come-ons to Brett Anderson and Damon Albarn, so my lust knows no boundaries of gender or genre.

(2) Yes, Christina writes only a portion of the songs on Stripped. So what? This slavish devotion to the misguided notion that there is something more pure about writing and performing your own material sort of forgets that music is traditionally meant to be sung by everyone. You don't denigrate stage actors for performing in plays that other people wrote, do you? Furthermore, how many songs did Frank Sinatra write? Dusty Springfield's name appears exactly zero times in the writing credits of Dusty In Memphis. And what of singers like Roger Daltrey, or how Elton John's best material has lyrics by Bernie Taupin?

These are pop music prejudices, and they are yours. Take them, keep them, shove them.



Okay, now that you're all huffy and puffy and your arms are folded and you've been sufficiently shut up, you ready to talk about one of the best pop albums of recent memory? Good.

Stripped is an audacious record. It's long: 20 tracks over 78 minutes. It's loud and varied in sound and mood. Some people think Christina hits too many notes, has too many of what the American Idol judges would call "runs" (and yes, you can have some fun with the double play of that word), where she lets her voice trill off in uncharted directions. Stripped could be attacked for being over packed, but really, it's an embarrassment of riches. Christina didn't know where this trip would take her, so she brought everything.

This is the record an artist makes when she's dying to explode. Every pop star reaches a point where they want to break out of the record company stranglehold. The Beatles began as a covers band, don't forget, until one day they decided they wanted to write their own songs and experiment in the studio. Boy bands sue their management to get out of their contracts, and pop divas get sexy, willful, and if we're lucky, outrageous. It doesn't always work. Pink was too contrived, and really, not that good to begin with. Britney waited too long to grow up, and when she claimed she had, we didn't really believe her. We hoped someone would pull her aside and tell her money doesn't equal education, platinum records don't breed sophistication, and hearing her drawl "y'all" just wasn't cute anymore.

Neither of those eventual failures was any surprise. We all suspected that both lasses would eventually reach their sell-by date. It was just a matter of time. Or maybe just I did, I don't know. A lot of people I knew really liked Pink, so it's hard to say. I do know that I was always rooting for Christina. She was the real deal, she had the voice, and even when she was playing the game, it appeared like she knew it and didn't care. Who else would show up to an awards ceremony wearing a giant blonde afro wig? Back when she came to Portland on the final leg of the tour to promote her first album, I wrote the blurb on it for The Portland Mercury. I did it as an open letter to Christina, imploring her to get bold, to be more like Madonna and expand on what she was doing. I like to think she read it, agreed, and Stripped was the result.

(Small aside: My friend was working at an indie record store when that issue of the Mercury was out, and some schmoe she was dating at the time came into the store and said to her, "Did you see that some dude is in here defending Christina Aguilera?" My friend replied, "Yes. That's that guy Jamie I've told you about." He didn't own up to whether or not his shoe tasted good, but he later took her to a Karate show, so fuck that guy. Seriously.)

Part of the appeal of Stripped is that it's an artist on the defensive. Part of the tone of this review is taken from that: yes, I know what you're going to say, but I have news for you, you don't know what I'm going to say and I'm gonna mess your shit up. The single "Fighter" is the best example of this, a girl's anthem saying exactly what I said above. Another single, a collaboration with Lil' Kim, "Can't Hold Us Down," was about the double-standards women are subjected to in games of love, romance, and most of all, sex. Even the album intro is contentious, using clips of Kurt Loder and Fred Durst to revive old feuds and squash them. I wonder if Eminem was too cowardly to give her the license to kick him in the nuts, too?

And yet, though she comes out of the gate swinging, Christina is smart in her sequencing of the album. If we are to accept her thesis that this album is called Stripped because it represents her dropping all pretense, presenting herself as she really is, then she has to show us every emotion, every flaw. The bravado of "Can't Hold Us Down" is followed by the insecurity of "Walk Away." It's the tale of how Christina was duped, how she let the wrong lover trick her into believing he cared, and though she can identify the problem, "the one thing I need to walk away from" is also the hardest link to break. You can have all the strength in the world, but it still takes courage to use it. Thus leading into "Fighter," the display of that strength, where our girl finally learns "just how capable I am to pull through...'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture/ I wouldn't know how to be this way now and never back down...I am a fighter and I/ I ain't goin' stop/ There is no turning back/ I've had enough." Thus concludes the first salvo.



The rest of the album from there is a representation of Christina's many moods, the various aspects of her personality. There's the party girl of "Dirrty," all cacophonous noise and bold proclamations; the wanton romantic who indulges in "Infatuation;" the dreamer as realist, demanding no less of a soulmate than "Loving Me 4 Me." There are more songs concerned with breaking out of whatever traps you are in, such as "Soar" and the Sugababes rip-off "Make Over" (the opening riff sounds exactly like "Overload," and that word even appears in the chorus), and while that is probably the most dominant theme of the record--the stripping down of one's life in order to run free, the overall effect of Stripped is viewing a woman in all of her aspects, no matter how overwhelming the amount of notes it takes to express them all. It's like a longer version of that horrible Meredith Brookes song, "Bitch."

Like that, but good.

Good because it's filtered through a pop prism. By "pop," one means "popular," and by "popular," one means accessible. That doesn't mean it's not a deep record, it just means that it's presented in such a way that is pleasing to the ear and can be absorbed and understood by as many people as possible. I always say that's the glory of pop music, and in such cases, I usually point to old live footage of Duran Duran where Italian girls with hairy armpits sing along to "Save a Prayer," understanding the emotion despite the language barrier. That's what good pop music does: it stirs us on levels that are beyond intellectual reasoning. It has less to do with chords and charts and technical mumbo jumbo than your average math-rock band, and as a result, it's far more effective. Pop music is more visceral, dropping calculation for level of feeling.

Which isn't to say that this music isn't smart. Christina got a lot of crap when this record came out, especially for the "Xtina" image of the "Dirrty" video and the provocative promotional photos, but Stripped had more going on than just the bump 'n' grind (not that there is anything wrong with that). People wondered what kind of role model Christina Aguilera was for young girls, and I'd have to say, is it really a bad one who tells them to believe in themselves and to not accept the disingenuous, contradictory messages of society? While the first three songs on Stripped are about the political battles of the heart, the final three appeal to the teenage existentialist in me: they're all about standing tall in one's own shoes. "The Voice Within" is about trusting your own instincts, your talents, your personal powers; "I'm OK" is about saying just that despite the people who try to pull you down (here an abusive father); "Keep On Singin' My Song" is the final flight, releasing oneself from all obligations except the ones to ourselves. "I'm gonna carry on...I'mma keep on singin' my song." (Okay, so maybe she's not a grammar role model.)



Of course, I've skipped the best statement of this self-belief, and probably the most popular. On her tour for the album, Christina would save this song for last, coming out by herself in just a T-shirt and jeans. "Did I forget something?" she'd ask. I've played the same game with you, passing right over "Beautiful." It's hard to decide what adjective to use for a song as beautiful as this, since it's already called "Beautiful"--but that's what it is, a real beauty. Ironically, it's one of the two songs on the record Christina didn't co-write. Linda Perry did it all, proving the broken-clock-is-right-twice-a-day cliché. Then again, it takes a well-honed performer's instinct to recognize quality material, to find the right vehicle for your voice, so credit is due.

Everyone has heard "Beautiful" because it was everywhere, a rightful hit if ever there was one. Its message is simple: now and again, we all feel a little down about ourselves, but it's not worth dwelling on, we have to love who we are. TLC attempted a similar message a few years before in "Unpretty," but they were too self-conscious about their own attractiveness to tackle it straight and hid behind third-person anecdotes. Christina has no such fear. It's what allows any of us to step into the narrative. It's from a first-person point of view, but addressed to all. "Now and then I get insecure, from all the pain/ I'm so ashamed/ [But] I am beautiful no matter what they say/ Words can't bring me down." I feel it, you feel it, we all feel it--we're all in this boat together. The song starts with a whisper ("Don't look at me") and builds to a roar, Christina opening up those famous pipes as wide as they'll go. "...the sun will always shine/ And tomorrow we might wake up on the other side." It's a transcendent moment of pop music, the point where the personal becomes the universal. Humanity is the only access code you need to identify.

Which is exactly why everyone reading this should own a copy of Stripped, because regardless of your preconceived notions, somewhere on this record, Christina Aguilera is talking about you.



NOTABLE B-SIDE: The first mash-up that I recall gaining international prominence was "A Stroke of Genius," when Freelance Hellraiser married the vocals from Christina's "Genie In a Bottle" to the music of some Strokes song (I forget which one, but does it matter? They're interchangeable), and everyone realized, "Wow, this is what the Strokes should sound like all the time." In another stroke of genius, a couple of years later Christina turned around and officially hired Freelance Hellraiser to remix "Fighter." He's given it a spy-movie funk line and a driving beat while replacing the bombast with video-game bleeps and bloops. It's just waiting to soundtrack some outer-space battle with lasers and sleek fighter ships, including a big, distorted, atmosphereless explosion after the bridge where Christina lets out a wail and Freelance Hellraiser starts twiddling his knobs. It's excellent, and can be found on the "Fighter" single, as well as a promotional EP that Target put out to promote the Justin/Xtina tour.

#52 #51 #50 #49



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Current Soundtrack: Morrissey, "I Will See You In Far Off Places;" Colin Meloy, "Shankhill Butchers (live @ the Birchmere)" & "Charlie;" Sarah Nixey, "The Collector;" Paul Weller, "Alone"

Current Mood: exhausted (it is 4 a.m., after all)

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

BORN A RAMBLIN' MAN

Portland people who are not one of my dorky MySpace friends, or who may not have noticed my bulletin about it on there, I wanted to let you know that my friend Andy Greenwald is reading tonight at Powells Books on Hawthorne, starting at 7:30. Andy is a great writer, the author of Nothing Feels Good, which made me listen to Dashboard Confessional, if you can believe it. He's reading from his first novel, Miss Misery, which I'm just about halfway through. I marvel by how many references Andy makes that I don't get. He's so much hipper than me!

Also, eagle-eyed readers may have noticed some new info in my bio under the latest "Can You Picture That?": Marc Ellerby has signed on as the artist for my Oni comic book series Love the Way You Love. This is the one starring Tristan and detailing his post-Cut My Hair life. Marc was my collaborator on the story for the Belle & Sebastian book, and you should visit his site and check out the R.E.M.-inspired comic he did recently.

Completing work this week on Ai Yori Aoshi vol. 14. Looks like there will be only one more after this.

Current Soundtrack: Ben Gibbard, "Hold On" (live acoustic Spiritualized cover); Paul Weller, "Super Lekker Stoned;" Girls Aloud, What Will the Neighbors Say?


Current Mood: blank

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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

BEAUTY IS WITHIN GRASP



My first DVD column of 2006 is now online. Go here and read the new installment of "Can You Picture That?". In it, I review Cafe Lumiere (as promised) and Kurosawa's riff on Hamlet, The Bad Sleep Well

This new month also means I have another selection of picks for Trilogy Video. The first three picks are romantic and the first two chosen in particular for the strange, unreal world they create; the final two are comedies about husbands plotting the murders of their wives and are chosen together because one has to wonder if one inspired the other.



* Le Notti Bianche starring Marcello Mastroianni, dir. Luchino Visconti, from a story by Dostoevsky

* Pandora & the Flying Dutchman starring James Mason & Ava Gardner, dir. Albert Lewin

* Sabrina starring Humphrey Bogart & Audrey Hepburn, dir. Billy Wilder

* Unfaithfully Yours starring Rex Harrison, written & directed by Preston Sturges

* Divorce Italian Style starring Marcello Mastroianni, dir. Pietro Germi...and check out the awesome cover by Jaime Hernandez:



Steven Soderbergh's new film Bubble is released on DVD today. It's part of his new five-picture experiment where the movie is released simultaneously in theaters, on disc, and as a download. Only a smattering of movie theatres have participated, so it's hard to say how their business would fare against such competition, but the company is claiming that the other avenues have been successful.

Which makes me wish all the more that the movie itself was, too. Bubble isn't a bad movie, really, but it seems like a rather slight effort to front such a bold mission. Starring non-actors working from only a script outline, it's a simplistic murder mystery. Clocking in at just a little over an hour, I couldn't help but feel the story had somehow gotten a short shrift. Certainly there was more here to be explored, a deeper delving into the feelings of the characters. The real heart of the story is Martha, played by Debbie Doebereiner with a naturalness that conveys a deep interior life. Most of Martha's motivations are below the surface, and first-time actress Doebereiner communicates the inner turmoil through her passive looks and soulful eyes. Given the strength of the performance, it made me want to know more. Why cut away as soon as Martha realizes her own truth? Why not share?

It remains to be seen how the next four films will go, and whether Bubble is merely the first component of something grander. I just hope Soderbergh's refusal to hedge his bet more doesn't cut this risky endeavor off at the knees.



Sales Pitch: I currently have seven auctions for anime DVDs running on eBay. Plase stop by my seller's page and take a look.

Current Soundtrack: The Trash Can Sinatras, "Wild Mountainside" single; The Squid & the Whale original soundtrack


Current Mood: quixotic

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Sunday, January 29, 2006

HOLLYWOOD GIRL ON THE FIRE ESCAPE, pt. 8 (Out of retirement!)

(part I) (part II) (part III) (part IV) (part V) (part VI) (Jen Wang's Audrey) (part VII)

Up-and-coming artist Terry Blas, whom I met through Joëlle, did me an awesome new Audrey.



Lovely, is it not?

Current Soundtrack: Eddie Izzard, Definite Article DVD, and something just fell in the kitchen...?!


Current Mood: surprised

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Friday, January 27, 2006

PERMANENT RECORDS: IT'S THE STORM THAT I BELIEVE IN

Permanent Records is a year-long project. Each Friday (or thereabouts), I will post a new entry about one specific album, chosen due to its significance to myself as a fan. Though the list is numbered, a particular record's placement should not be considered a ranking. There will be 52 albums in all.

This endeavor is based on a concept started by Chris Tamarri at Crisis/Boring Change.

49. THE CARDIGANS - LONG GONE BEFORE DAYLIGHT (2003)

Personnel: Nina Persson, vocals; Peter Svensson, guitar; Lars-Olaf Johansson, keyboards; Magnus Sveningsson, bass; Bengt Lagerberg, drums
Producer: Per Sunding & the Cardigans /Label: Stockholm/Koch



Let me tell you a story about a girl.

Yes, this entry centers around the female of the species. A lot of them will, so you might as well make your peace with it now. Our music is invariably tangled up in the highs and lows of our lives, and for a lot of us, that means relationships have soundtracks. The chick factor will sadly be a big factor in what I choose to write about.

Sometimes, my life and a particular song or album converges so completely, I have cause to wonder if there is something cosmic about it, if divinity and fate do take an active role in the everyday affairs of human beings. At some point in 2003, did God lay His hand on the Cardigans and say, "In 2004, Jamie S. Rich will be suffering from a nasty break-up, and I need you to write a track that will ease him through"?

I had been in an on-again/off-again relationship for six years when Long Gone Before Daylight surfaced in the U.S. If we were to call the relationship in terms of official time, it was off more than it was on, but as anyone who has been in such a liaison knows, there is no official off time. You're in it wholly through the entire thing, whether you know it or want to admit it or not. The fanciest metaphor I can come up with for this girl and I was that she was a car and I was a boat, and no matter how much she tried to leap in the water and grow a propeller, it did about as much good as me jumping on land and trying to grow wheels. For those times when the coastline and the highway ran parallel, it was great. We could pretend there wasn't that big a barrier between us, forgetting that at some point the highway would take a turn or go into a tunnel, or I'd have to steer around a reef or something, and we'd be out of sync once more.

At around this time, we'd been on the same path for nearly a year, and we gearing up for a big change. I was leaving my job in comics to pursue writing full-time, and she was going to make a move-up on her career path, one that was going to take her out Oregon. The plan was that I would go with her. The timing was perfect. I was ready to start something new, and the opportunity was in front of us.

Only, as the date approached, the cracks began to show. When it came down to it, she started to hem and haw about the whole thing. What had seemed like an answer of timing became a question of time: as in, would she have time for me what with all these new responsibilities. What I was hearing was "No" disguised as "I don't know," a signal of obfuscated clarity that it was up to me to read, and that it was up to me to make a decision about. I decided even if "I don't know" was the reality, it was not good enough, so I chose to end it.

Problem was, I ended it three months before she was due to leave, so rather than quickly ripping off the band-aid and dealing with the pain, it was a long and slow process, like a dream band-aid that keeps growing and the more you pull the more there seems to be attached to your skin. At some points over that summer, I felt like I was in a scene from the British sitcom Coupling, where Steve tells Jane, "We broke up," and Jane responds, "No, we haven't. I don't accept that," over and over and over again.

This is where the Cardigans came in. Specifically, the song "Communication," the first on Long Gone Before Daylight. Four minutes and twenty-eight seconds of exactly what I was feeling.

"Communication" is a fairly simple song. For the album, the Cardigans had dropped both the kitschy cocktail sound of their earliest recordings and the more synthesized instrumentation of their previous disc, 1998's Gran Turismo. Emerging five years later from whatever wilderness they found themselves in, the Swedish band had adopted an approach more akin to country rock, like Mazzy Star on a clear day looking on to forever. Peter Svensson had bought a steel guitar, and he liked it. A lot.

The most straightforward example of this approach is "Communication," a song that slowly builds as guitar, piano, drums, and the softest of strings quietly dance with one another while Nina Persson pours out her heart. The main body of the song is almost matter-of-fact. Persson is down about a love affair that isn't quite connecting, but she's mellow and mournful, not overly plaintive. As she sings, it creates a shiver in the room. The fire has gone out. It's honest and raw almost to the point of making me question whether it's okay for an artist to be so up front with her feelings; or worse, am I so detached as a writer, I wouldn't have the guts to write something like that. (This entry, I guess, is my answer, even if the same fears still exist. What is too much to reveal? When do I invoke my authorial right to lie? Will she read this? Am I being fair? Isn't there a character I can hide behind?)

Beyond the honesty of emotion, though, the lyrics held a scary parallel for me. "For 27 years I've been trying/ to believe and confide in/ different people I found/ some of them got closer than others/ and some wouldn't even bother/ and then you came around." That's me! That could be me! I was right around that age when I met her, that was how I felt about it. Okay, so that's how most people feel going into a new relationship after some botched ones, but we're talking a selfish listening experience here, and this is how the song--not just the song, the album--begins. God, Cardigans, me.

It's a hopeful and romantic opening, but it's not to be. The problem comes later in the first verse, when Persson reveals that this connection is one-sided. "I never really knew how to move you/ so I tried to intrude through/ the little holes in your veins." This isn't paradise, a fundamental understanding of one another is absent from the relationship. And isn't it nice for once that rather than a song being a veiled metaphor about drugs (there were none in my scenario), a drug reference is actually a metaphor for love, for trying to get someone to let you in so that you can know them the way you want them to know you?

More than once in our relationship, we argued about things that had been said and what they meant. I remember trying to tell her how I felt like we spoke two different languages. To be more precise, I was a lot less fair than that: I accused her of hearing things that most people hear and ascribing to them a meaning that most people do not have. It's a sad day when you have "most people" on your side, but I take that as an emblem of my struggle. I was resorting to any language I could find that would get my meaning through. I didn't care what it ended up being, as long as it worked. Yet it never did--or if it did, it was a patch that didn't hold--and being who I am and how I would deal with things, I would retreat, hiding in the world I have in my head and trying to ignore the problem, pretend it doesn't exist. Part of the chorus of "Communication" is "I've seen you, I know you, but I don't know/ how to connect/ so I disconnect," and every time I heard it, I so got it. I got it 100%.

It chills me still to listen to this song. Every time I hear the opening chords, I stop dead. I must've listened to it hundreds of times over that summer--and eighteen times straight while writing this--it's never stopped having an impact. Probably for every one time I played the whole of Long Gone Before Daylight, I'd wager I listened to "Communication" three times. I sent it to people over e-mail, and rather than explain to them what was going on with me, I would just say, "Listen to this song. It's got it all." Which is not to discount the rest of the album, which is amazing. I love it front to back. The second song on it (also the lead single), "You're the Storm," got a lot of play off me, too, as it reminded me of the better parts of this failing relationship. Its battle-themed similes and the comparison of one's lover to a destructive yet necessary force of nature was all too accurate to how I felt about this girl. Which is an important distinction. For as crappy as it had become, it was a necessary part of my life, for part of who I was and was becoming.



Of course, that didn't mean it wasn't finished. Storms blow over, after all. "Communication" had a bigger role than just being an understanding voice in my sorrow. At about the 2:50 mark, the song goes into an instrumental bridge, a guitar solo that, as it rings out, changes the key and raises the tempo. At 3:15, everything shifts. Nina Persson is no longer mildly accepting of her fate. She becomes defiant. If she isn't being listened to, she will at least be heard.

"Well, this is an invitation!
it's not a threat
if you want communication
that's what you get
I'm talking and talking
but I don't know

how to connect

and I hold
a record for being patient
with your kind of hesitation

I need you, you want me
but I don't know
how to connect
so I disconnect
I disconnect
"

Wow.

Obviously, you have to hear it to get the full effect, as the vocals rise and rise all the way through, but there is so much going on with the language in those stanzas, as well. For the first time, the narrator is crying out, insisting herself. Notice how the words change. It's no longer her seeing and knowing him, it's now about mutual need and want, demanding that what she saw between them was really real, and if her partner is not going to acknowledge it, then she's through.

It was this part of the song that I had to hang on to, the part I needed to embolden me. Lord knows, I certainly did feel like I deserved some kind of award for the patience I had shown, for how long I had hung on. It was time to act on my own behalf. Previous break-ups had been against my will, and this one would be my decision. So on the way to and from confrontations, I would listen to "Communication" on my iPod and let the tears they drew be my inspiration, be my strength. I would stand my ground. I'd disconnect.

And I did.

It wasn't easy, it hurt like hell, but I did.


The author and Nina Persson in 1997. I was in one of the worst stages of my oft-forgotten moptop phase.

Would I have made it through without the Cardigans? Would I have made the same choices? I don't know. Is it worth asking? Because the truth is, for the rest of my life, when I put Long Gone Before Daylight on the stereo--and I will often, trust me--these are the things I will think of. Time and perspective will hopefully show that I became a better person--and a better writer--for its influence, and for the influence of the whole relationship "Communication" helped cap. That's an assessment for a later essay, though, something to be gleaned from future listens. One never knows, Long Gone Before Daylight may transform itself and become a warrior of another kind in a whole different Jamie S. Rich crisis.

Until then, I have 2004 and all these things that surround it, and as Nina says later in the album, on "03.45: No Sleep":

"I've always been too lame
to see what's before me
and I know nothing sweeter than
champagne from last new year's
sweet music in my ears
and a night full of no fear
."

That's enough to hold me up right now. Which is pop music, really. It can't solve everything, but it can fill this moment and make it feel like forever.

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